Today was FUNNY~

I finally finished my report this morning and submitted it already~ I exceeded the 10 page limit by 4 pages! Hahaa~ Appendixes are part of the 10 page limit. But luckily, i will not be penalized~ Haha! Now that its done, i have the presentation slide to go~!

Anyway, after submitting the report, i rushed to canteen A to buy food~ I was SO HUNGRY becoz i didn't take my breakfast this morning. Well, before i got to the canteen, i met my classmate and i signalled to her with a nod and guess wat? the guy in front of her thought i signalled to him and he said "hello" to me! Haha~ I pretend i didn't see him and called out my friend's name instead. Dunno what happened to him after dat~ haha!!

The queues at the canteen are super long! The crowds are scary during lunch time and it took me almost 20 min to get my food! Haha!

Work Work~! Foooooood!

I'm a Submarine~

My friend asked me why do i always do last-min work? So i told him, "I can work only under pressure, but sometimes, i can also crack under pressure". And he replied, "How come u work like a submarine?" I was amused by that analogy so i decided to share it with everyone~ haha!

Anyway, i'm really working against time now. Looking at the amount of time i have left and the amount of sleep i manage to squeeze in, its not promising enough~ Haha! And here i am, taking a break, blogging away~ Haha!!

Anyway, i finally uploaded 6 albums of photographs to my picasa web album~ Go take a look when free ba~! Have my new hairstyle too! Although it may not look very nice on the photos~ Haha!

bloop bloop bloop~

Phoenix... BANG!

Lo and Behold..... My aunty's doggy, Phoenix with its favourite act, PLAY DEAD!

How much is that doggy in the window~?

Sunday~

Haha! Today is the last day of this long weekend holiday~ and guess what i did the whole day so far? NOTHING much~ hehe~ Slept till 1.30pm, waking up only becoz my sis is coming over for visiting~ ate lunch, chit chat a little before she leaves for another place. Then help uncle willie fix up the old but working and out of ink, printer. Before i know it, its already 6 plus already~ And i still didn't get any work done~! I'm left with a few days to get my 10 page report ready and prepare for a 20min ppt presentation!

Have to start soon~! After my dinner maybe? Heee~ Now let me slack a little more! Hee~

Work Work~ Like the peons~!

Okay~ Day 3~!

So we started day 3 at 12am, at bukit batok csc~ we bowled about 4 games each in 2 hours! quite good time actually~ could have been faster, but the system wasn't fast enough for us~! heee~ My best game that nite was my 4th game~ I bowled 171 and had a turkey!! Hee~ I was soooooo happy and proud of myself~ but guess wat? the game before that i onli bowled 67~ haha~! After the games, my arm was aching so badly~ Haha!

After dat, my cousin came to pick us up to go to his place. There we played a little mahjong and blackjack before we sleep~ We woke up onli at 11am this morning~! One of the latest in my aunty's house becoz my uncle seldom let us slp in. Haha~ We had brunch, den went to my dad's place for visiting. Snacked and snacked~

From there, we were supposed to watch movie and the price per ticket is now $10!! So i had no choice but to go back and pick up some vouchers first. At least i saved $2.50 per ticket~ But when i msged uncle willie (adrian's dad), he said he wun be in. So i had no choice but to go to adrian's shop to pick up the keys~ I tink his colleague didn't recognise me~ i hope so too. Guess wat? when i reached home, uncle willie is at home... apparently, his job was delayed~ Haha! So i took the keys for nothing... Well, anyway i went to AMK hub and return adrian his keys and bought the tickets. Wanted to watch AH Long Pte Ltd, but it was selling out fast up to the 8pm show! So we settled for KungFu Dunk~ The show was quite nice actually, not as stupid as i tote it was. Storyline feels a little like Slam Dunk, especially the part where jay chou feel in love with the captain's sister and him being a total beginner in basketball basics. The moves in the show were a little exaggerated at some parts, but still can be considered realistic ba, becoz i feel that the moves can be done by the professionals!

After the show, i rushed to rachel's place for a little CNY gathering. very little ppl turned up~ from my class, there is onli me~ haha! but it was fun~ had my first steamboat for this CNY and we played taboo~! there was lots of singing too~ hee~

Overall, i tink CNY this year was considered to be fun althou not so fruitful~ haha!! Hee!

Bowling anyone?

CNY day 2

2nd day of CNY is about to end soon~ Today, my day started with visitin my roomie's house at simei~ left the house at bout 9am!! Ate so much snacks there~ haha!!

Next up, bowling at CSC @ bukit batok. played about 3 games and had a plate of fried rice, complimentary of my auntie julie~

Next, i went to adrian's cousin's place at woodlands~ It was a little funny becoz adrian is there? didn't expect him to be there actually, since he didn't go home last nite~ anyway, he shook my hand and wished me happy new year~ and also commented that my hairstyle is nice~ haha! guess how i replied? "you the one dun let me cut~" TELL ME.... How stupid can i get? Haha!

After that my aunty picked me up at went to auntie juliet's place~ played a little blackjack and lost 10 buckeroos~! Hee~ But since i lost to my aunty, i didn't mind~ Hee~

Now i'm blogging at my aunty's place, waiting for my sis and her bf to turn up~ den we will be bowling at bukit batok csc again~ csc is civil service club~ we will be there from 12am to bout 3am ba~ hee~

Wat a day~!

Happy Lunar New Year!

Its the year of the rat again~ I have lived thru 2 cycles of the chinese zodiac already~ Yup~ I'm 24 this year~ Even thou i'm a rat, this year does not favour me at all~ Its an unlucky year for me. "fan tai sui".

But even thou it is unlucky for me, i still won some money from mahjong and blackjack~ My earnings so far would be about 10+ bucks? Haha!

So, for today, i went 4 places in total~ We started our "journey" at bout 2pm and went to my uncle's mom's place. After lunch there, we went to my aunty's old friend's place~ There i met my junior from PESS!! I was so surprised~ Haha! After dat, i went to my ah ma's place where i met my mom after so long~ Sat for a short while, i went to my mama's place. (father's mother) Ate late dinner there den go home le. Haha!

Short description of a long day~! Anyway, when i'm back, i was quite surprised that adrian went out already. I believe he wun be coming back tonight again ba~ not that i'm bothered by it~ haha~ And yes. all the family and relatives still doesn't know about this. Haha!

CNY day 1. Over in 15 min~

Its SHORT~!

I took train to commonwealth mrt station and from there took a taxi to holland village. The journey wasn't that bad but the scary part was walking up the stairs to the salon. The salon is called Next, and its located near the "party supplies" store. Eh, last time its called PArty USA... But now i'm not sure~

Anyway, when i walked up the stairs, my heart was already pounding. After i registered myself with them, i was showed to a seat. This seat is not the usual hair salon seats where they can adjust the height. Its more like a 1 seater leather sofa. Its super comfy! Plus, they will serve you drinks on the house~ Hee~ Before cutting, they washed my hair. Again~ Comfy is the word~ The guy was so gentle and the massage was so soothing~ It was a great experience.

After washing, my heart started pounding again~ Mack, my stylist, asked me if i was ready to chop of my hair. I jus nodded~ Hee~ And she jus cut away~ She seems very meticulous in her work. After the first cut, she got her "apprentice" to blow dry my hair and she shaped my hair again~ I was quite amazed at the end result. Its not wat i expected, but its still nice anyway~ haha! I got reminded of myself maybe 4 to 5 years ago? Hee~

Now i'm only worried that i dunno how to upkeep this hairstyle~ Hee~ but i'll try!! I'll post the pic up after CNY~ Hee~ Keep the suspense up~

Changes~!

2.4km Test~

Its been so long since i was tested on 2.4km~ brings back memories~ hahaa!! Well, anyway, its part of my fitness and conditioning module and this test is 10% of my total grade and the results is ranked according to time... thru the ranking, our lecturer will grade us accordingly. Although i was the slowest in my class, i'm surprised at my timing~ I managed 13:30min. I would say that i did train for it, but i feel that i didn't train enough~ but i'm still very happy nonetheless~! Hee~ I'm very proud of my results~! Hee~

Heeee!!

A Date?

Went for a date on Saturday~ It was our first date~ It started out a little wierd becoz he was soooo quiet~ We watched Sweeny Todd~ It was quite scary at the start, not "ghostly" scary, but "gory" scary~ but nearing the end of the movie, it was so repetitive that it became funny more den scary~ as a musical movie, i tink its quite good~ professor snape and the rat from harry potter also acted in this show, and at some parts, their acting were very similar to this show~ Same goes for johnny depp in pirates of the carribean~ If i had to rate it, i would give it 3.5 out of 5? Haha!

After movies, we went shopping~ need to buy a cap and jeans or track pants~ but couldn't find the tracks that's nice and of my size~ so bought a cap instead~ Its dark pink~ I tink the color is very nice~ made me a little more feminine~ Hee~

After walking and walking, we decided that we better go for dinner in case the place closed early~ We had ramen at this stall in Far East Square~ FYI, its located near raffles place and china town~ Haha! I had to say this becoz i thought it was at orchard initially~! The ramen was quite nice but the charsiew was SUPER fatty~! But wat really attracted me was the atmosphere there. It was quite, serene, wooden tables and chairs, simple lights that are neither very bright nor dark~ The sashimi was delicious! Very thick, juicy and fresh~! Wasted he dunno how to appreciate sashimi~ Hee~

We went to Chinatown next with the purpose of locating "tang yuan" dessert~ but it was so crowded and messy and we kinda lost or way for a while~ Everywhere was stalls selling "nian huo" for chinese new year~ Sweets and more sweets~ and the floor was littered with sweet wrappers~ After a while, we finally found the stall, BUT...... its queue was super long man~ So we gave up and went to buy drink from 7-11 instead~ Hee~ There is this new coffee and it actually taste quite nice~ Hee~ There is this mint green tea also~ quite funny the taste, but nice~

Hmmm~ Still got wat... After that we walked back to raffles place mrt and took a train back~ We had more stuffs to talk about nearer to the end of the day~ So it turned out to be quite alright~ Overall, it was quite enjoyable~

Oh, hope you dun mind me bloggin yeah? Hee~

Moving on?

Silence! I'll Kill You~!

My class has been going on and on about this phrase... "Silence! I'll kill you!!" And i have been wondering whats it about~ So today, marc sent me a link to the video below and i realise what's that all about~! Haha!!



These next 3 vids are basically Jeff and the Walter that Achmed was talking about! Enjoy~!

Walter and Jeff Dunham # 1


Walter and Jeff Dunham # 2


Walter and Jeff Dunham # 3


I Don't Give a Damn... Ah...

Paintball~!

Went for paintball last sunday with marc and his company ppl~ It was FUN~! Even thou it burned a hole in my pocket~ It cost us 80 bucks each for that game... Even though i didn't know anyone except marc, his colleagues were very nice ppl~!

We started out with the usual game... Shoot the targets down and retrieve the ammo box~ And we ended it off with a 8 v 2 deathmatch~ 8 of Marc's colleague vs Marc and Kai~! It was fun to see the guys shoot each other down man~! haha!!

Here are some pictures of that fateful day~ Wahahaa!!

Me trying on the "no.4" uniform to help "cushion" the impact of the paintball~

Kendrick: "Shit, i brought 2 shirt and no pants!" (So he lent me his other shirt..)

Allocation of groupings~ We had 15 ppl in total, so 5 in a team~

After the briefing, before the "war"!

Practicing and testing out our rifles~

Posing~ The Japalang Team~ None of us had a complete "No.4" suit~ Haha!


After a few games... All shagged out~

Before the commencement of the 8v2 match~ Marc in brown, Kai in blue~

After the last buzzer was sounded, our 2 heroes, soaked with paint~!

Marc's mask after the game~ Patterned~! Cool~!


Tabao~! 2 big baluku~! Haha!! (Taken with my phone...)

This session is considered to be a farewell party for Marc as he is leaving for aussie to study~ But he will be back again in Dec, and when the time comes, he might arrange for an airsoft game in bintan or batam~ I'll try to make it if my finances hold up~!

Marc, have a safe journey and see ya soon~! Thanks for the pics~!

Cool Game! Enjoyed it~!

Getting into the Groove~

This is the 4th week of school, and i'm starting to feel the heat... Many assignments to complete and yet i'm still slacking~! Tml is the deadline for submission of an article review, yet i'm still blogging~! Hahaha!! A girl needs her break too rite??

I'm slowly getting over adrian and i'm glad for all the distractions in school and from friends... Tennis, Jogging, Assignments that are bottle necking, Chinese New Year... All these and more... I'm glad i have my roomies and friends that were so accomodating to my nonsense and complaints...

I'm starting my life anew and in fact, change is already beginning... I have got a new phone! A Nokia 6500 Classic, very sleek~ The next change would be a new haircut at NEXT salon~ (What an irony, Haha!) But this time, it will be a hairCUT~ no more trimmings... Will post my before and after photos after cutting them~ Wish me Luck! After cutting my hair, i believe i will be changing my specs... Saw one that i really like, but i'm not sure if it will suit me after my hair cut~ Hee~ Many changes on the way~!

I'm enjoying singlehood rite now, but still, i'm a sucker for love and attention... I would still want to be pampered~ Haha!! But look at me? I'm happier now... It may be a right move after all... Wait a min, it WAS a right move! (No, according to my sis, it IS a right move!) Hahaa!

Anyway, its time to move on and focus on what's important. Family, Friends and School Work~!

Groovy Grooving~!

Together already~

They are officially together now... He smsed me this afternoon to let me know the "good" news...

I'm happy for him, but somewhat unsure of whats my feeling now... I tink i'm happy~ but thats my head thinking... but as for my heart, i dunno man~ feeling a little lost... but as i have said before, at least i know that there is no hope in waiting for him anymore and its high time for me to move on... And i WILL~

There is always time for everything... And its time for me to move on~!

If he is happy, i'm happy?

I finally realised how much he likes that gal... His attitude changed when i decided to help him talk to the girl~ I guess he will treat me more like a fren now... Instead of a burden ba...

I have decided to help him becoz i find him quite pitiful~ stuck between a couple, when the girl dun seem to want to give up her current relationship for him... somemore he already spent some nites at her place too... I feel its unfair for him to live liddat... so i will be calling the girl up... once he gives me her number...

I dunno if i'm doin the rite thing, but i'm doin it anyway... but at least i noe now that i'm finally free... free from the emotional burden... free from the thought of getting together again... But at least if i noe he is happy, den i'll be happy too...

Update: He gave me her number alrite, that means he really wans me to call her... but he suddenly say the girl is uncomfortable... so i wun be calling her after all... Come to think of it, its obvious why she dun wanna recieve my call... but i shall not continue any further...

For the first time after so long, there is "hahaha" coming from his smses... Hahaha!!

I'm FREE to date!

Romantic Princess

Just finished watching a taiwan drama, Romantic Princess... I spent only 2 days watching the whole series as its onli 13 episodes long...

The show started out funny, but as the show dragged on, the plot seemed to be very predictable... And it doesn't seem to be as romantic as i tote it would be... The ending is very stupid... i was hoping for like a "3 years later" part where i can see the development from there... But no! it ended at the airport with the 2 main characters kissing... Its not even the "hot and steamy" type of kiss... More like a peck peck peck type of kiss...

Anyway, its a little disappointing, but i still enjoyed the hilarious parts...

Time to stop watching shows and get down to work!!!

Kinship 2 手足II

Watching the latest few episode, the problem between yusheng and dinosaur, i got reminded of what happened to me. Thinking back, i should have agreed to walk away when he first mentioned there was a problem between us... I should have been brave like yusheng to accept the fact... Maybe things will be better now...

Too late... Its too late...

ICG Netball~!

We advanced to the top 8~! Our class played SUPER well lah~! All the swift and accurate passes, fantastic shooting by zijian and evon, all out defense from shy and alvin, fast and supportive center and wings, amanda, eileen and sheryl~! We are a fantastic team and i believe we will advance to the semis tml~!

KEEP IT UP GUYS and GALS~!

I broke my NO SUPPER rule today~! Had cheese and mushroom prata and a milo dinosaur~! WAh Super fattening lorz~! Nvm, i tink i worked hard enough to indulge in today's supper~! I'll jog it off~! Soon~ Haha!

Update: We are placed 3rd~! Good job guys~! We played well today! Haha!!

JIAYOU JIAYOU~!

So its monday again~

Jus few hours ago, my uncle brought us to a place in bukit batok to eat dinner~ the food there is fantastic lah! We had steamed garoupa, cereal prawns, prawn paste chicken, kangkong and minced pork with salted eggs... Its very nice... The seafood are super fresh and its not too ex... The meal cost about 90 bucks for 7 ppl~

Now i'm back in hall~ Somehow, i'm quite happy to be here... At least i know that i have a place to stay~ For this semester at least~ I'm slowly adapting to my life without him as my bf... without him as my life... Sooner or later, i'll be able to push him out of my life as a bf, an ex, totally....

I better slp liao~ tml still got school~!

To forget is a long and tiring process.

Friday~

Its friday again~ its been almost 2 weeks since i stayed in hall~ Slowly getting used to the lifestyle here... I can feel that my overal physical activity has increased, thanks to all my jogging kakis... Its also thanks to all my online msn friends that keep chatting with me even after midnight~ (you know who you are~! haha~)

I feel that i have been blessed with wat i have now, and i'm not going to lose them this time... But there is just 1 thing that i need to do... That is to reaffirm if i should wait for him still... or not... When the time is right, i'll do what i have to do, once and for all~ This would be the deciding factor...

Will you avoid me again?

Hall of Fame?

Somehow, my name is still on NYP website~ Haha!!
Here's the link~ http://www.nyp.edu.sg/sidm/sidm_showcaseGA.html

This is a project we worked on during our school days~ But the thumbnail provided is quite pathetic~ They should just host the actual game!

Toyz
Category:
Flash Game
Award:
Noise Singapore Showcase
Description:
This is a PC Flash game created over a period of 3 weeks. This is a strategy turn base game where the players take turn controlling their army toys to outwit each other. Mix and match your own army with the remains that’s left behind during the battle to turn the tide around
DONE BY:
Loh Jin Tian Alvin, Lee Mei Feng Rosenna, Lim Mingsen Benson, Nicholas Seah Cheng Hong, Nur Hayati, Si Cheong Meng Sammi Adrian,Tan Jun Jie Gavin

I'm Famous!

Simple Photoshop~

We were told to submit a class photo for the annual school magazine~ So all of us wore our class t-shirt yesterday and chose a perfect spot for our photos. We wanted to be creative, but the security refused to let us step on the grass... So we had to take the usual boring class photo in the end~

After that, someone suggested taking some fun shots of our backs so that it can be composited into the boring photos~ and one thing leads to another... we ended up taking fun shots of our front too~! And we rushed to class~!

After class, some of them went to play table tennis, but i decided to go back to hall to work on the photo instead~! Its something that i really enjoy doing~ Haha! After about 6 to 7 hours... This is what i had~

Well, its not my best work, but i feel its quite well done already~ Considering that i haven touched photoshop for quite a while~ Haha!!

Photoshop RuleZ~!

Simple Life..

1. Wake up, Wash up.
2. Breakfast.
3. School, Lessons.
4. Hip Hop Course.
5. Anime.
6. Short Short Nap.
7. Subway.
8. Window Shopping.
9. Games at the Arcade.
10. Anime.
11. Jogging around Campus.
12. Study a little.
13. MSN.
14. Facebook.
15. Anime.
16. Sleep.

How nice huh?

Back in Hall~

Wah~ i brought so many things back to hall~ Food and stuffs~ haha!! Shiok man~ I tink i'm going to grow fat here... Hee~ Noodles, Bread, Ham, Chocolate Milk, Jam, Jelly~ So many things!!!! Woo Hoo~

I brought my inline skates and hockey gear, so i tink i'll start inline hockey again soon~ but i'll take it real slow~ becoz i can't afford to injure myself, especially this semester~ Thanks to a silly module that will deduct marks if i can't take the test due to injury~ So stupid~

Brought quite a few stuffs to decorate the pin board... I'll do doing a banner soon which says "FORGET HIM" and point it to his picture~

Tink i'm starting to get used to hall life ba~ Jus treat it like chalet lo~ I'm onli lacking of TV... Will be missing american idol lor~ So SAD~

TV TV TV~ ANTENNA~!

He didn't come back~

Yupz~ He didn't come back yesterday nite again~ Its either he really had a good time staying at whoever's house, or he is trying his best to avoid me~

Well, he does not need to worry anymore... Adrian's parents cleared the storeroom to make space for me, so that i dun haf to share a room with adrian... This means he can come back to his own house... Is it really that awkward? Its not like i'm going to seduce him or wat... I already gave up the notion of getting back together again... I will not stand in his way to wat he thinks is his happiness~

Anyway, when i'm back this coming friday, i'll hide in the new room when he comes back and comes out only after he left the place for work next morning~ He will not see me at all~ So to him, i dun exist, and to me, he dun exist...

I'm very thankful for what his parents are doing for me and i appreciate it alot~ I will surely repay the debt once i'm in the position to do so. Once i graduate, i'll definately give them some allowance... This is the least i can do~

One step at a time~

Wonder if he is a Coward...

I already decided not to slp in the same bed liao~ i'm even slping on the beach chair... But i woke up at 6plus to find his bed still empty~ Apparantly he went to his neighbour's house to stay over... When i tink about it, there can be onli 3 reasons...

1. He wans to play games loudly and enjoy the company of a friend...
2. He lied and went over to that girl's house instead...
3. He really stayed over at his neighbour's house but its becoz he doesn't want to face me...

To find out if it is number 2, its very simple actually... Jus check his phone messages... If their is no messages or phonecalls to and from that girl, it would mean that they were together last nite... Although that is wat i suspect it to be, i will not do anything to find out... He is no longer my bf, whatever he does now is really none of my business...

Wakarimasen!

Drama can be a Hope (Part 2)

It seems the shows that i watch are reflecting wat i'm going thru and how i feel...

Our local drama Kinship 2 手足II is also one of them... About episode 18, which was aired on 9th Jan, Wednesday, basically showed Jin Sha finally caught Nai Fa and Daisy~ Jin Sha went on a rampage, and cried alot... Meiqi mama consoled her and talked some sense into her, and i'm going to use what she said on myself~

"I didn't want to let him go either, becoz we led such happy life together, couldn't bear to let go. I'm working on leading a single life now. You can do it to!"

"If a man has had a change of heart, its no use keeping him by your side either. Learn to let go or you will be the one suffering in the end..."

I can do it too!

Back~

Lugging my heavy bags, returning after being away for almost a week, i was draggin my feet as i walked from the bus stop to the door step... Its not the weight of the bag that was slowing me down... It was my emotions... I wasn't feeling as comfortable as i tote i would be~ But when i'm back, i was alright. I washed my clothes, unpacked my bags, prepared some stuffs which i wan to bring back to hall this sunday~

Looking at the food cooked by adrian's mom, smelling the flavour, tasting them, made me realise how much i missed home cooked food~ Although i'm getting used to hall food and hall life, home is still the best...

Except, this may very well not be my home... I know what i must do later and i shall do it well... I shall not be bothered by his existence and carry on with my life... To adrian, this must be acknowledged as a temporary refuge for me... But as long as i know its not, its fine...

I do not dare to touch his bed, fearing that the feelings will float back to me and trigger my tears... So i believe i shall sleep on his beach chair today... I must be strong!

Give Me Strength~

Pri Sch Gathering...

True Blue 6B Gathering... Haha! Today onli 8 ppl turned up for this "farewell" gathering for Meng. He is leaving for Shanghai on monday for a 1 year work and study experience i tink~ Ate at NYDC and came back by cab... 21 bucks! Lucky 3 ppl share~ Haha!!

As for school? Its starting to get busier, but i'm still slacking~ Coz i believe i will not be able to get in the groove for another few weeks ba~ The courses are quite dry, but i'm blessed with interesting teachers for my general modules... But for PE modules, we are taught by koreans! Luckily one of the 3 teachers can speak good english, if not i tink we are really DEAD...

Adrian's mom didn't call me today... I wonder why... Althou i noe she said before that if it doesn't go back to how it was, i can be her god daughter... But i have this feeling that she will slowly get use to me not being around... And probably she will forget bout wat she said after a few months... I can only hope for the best...

She ask me not to give up... But i want to... If he can do it to me once, he surely can do it to me again... I'm not so sure if i want him as my husband anymore... I still love him... But i'm not sure if i can hold up... I need to let go in order to carry on with my life... But adrian's mom doesn't want me to let go~ So how liddat?? I also dunno liao~ Hiaz...

Alright~ Back to my anime~!

OUENDAN!!!

Drama can be a hope~

I was watching 櫻野3加1, a taiwan drama... I like the characters so i decided to start on this drama... Not that i read anything about it prior to watching the show...

Anyway, at about episode 13 onwards, the story development between Yang Jia Jiang and Xia Tian is quite similar to mine... As in Yang Jia Jiang demanded a break up while Xia Tian knows that she loves him too much to give up and that his actions is due to some other reasons, and not becoz he didn't love her...

The camping trip in episode 15 is also very similar... I asked adrian the same thing as Xia Tian did... She asked Yang Jia Jiang if he can pretend that they are still a couple... pretend that he still loves her... jus keep hugging like that, at least till the rain stopped... The only difference is Yang Jia Jiang really still loves Xia Tian... Its circumstances that drove them apart... But for me, Adrian doesn't love me anymore... Even if he agreed, it would be out of habit and maybe even pity... Hiaz...

I was so so so hoping that the characters are me and adrian... becoz as the story advanced, they finally got back together... Hiaz... You have to watch the show to know what i mean~

Anyway, here's the link to the show if u guys are interested...
http://www.ttv.com.tw/drama/2007/InYa/index.htm (Chinese Text)

Can't seem to shite~

1st day in school~

Today is the first day in school~ Started off quite slowly...
Adrian's parents sent me to school with some of my barang barang... Adrian's mom was so sentimental about me staying in school~ She called me to talk a little after my lesson~ Hee~

Anyway, i met mich and went to school earlier for lunch and to meet hakim... Then went for maths lecture... It must be the most boring lesson in my whole life in school man~ Anyway, after that was fitness and conditioning which i was damn shocked by the marks breakdown... 40% on serious fitness lor~ like 2.4, pacer test, strength and flexibility~! I'm dead for this module liao lor~ Next was tennis which we didn't exactly play tennis... Spent the whole 1 hour going thru module outline... But we did play on our own after dat~ Quite fun~

Hall life starts from here on... Tabao dinner den go hall eat... After eating, slack around and unpack my stuffs... Den at 11.15pm, we went jogging!! Did some push ups and sit ups and finally help nuriah move fridge for some reason~

After dat we still went for supper which i only had ice lemon tea! I'm dieting remember? And we did a little shopping at a 24hour supermarket~ Den come back to hall... Bathe, Wash Clothes and wait for the washing machine to be done with our clothes... By the time i'm here bloggin is already 3.30am!! Best part? I still can't slp~ Maybe i'm not used to this environment ba~

So i'm going to watch 1 episode of Ying Ye 2 Jia 1, den i'm going to slp le~ Hahaa!! Tml's Lesson starts at 12.30, and that would give me about 6 to 7 hours of slp... Enough lah~ Hahah!!

As for adrian? I like no time to think of him also~ Maybe 6 times for the whole day? But thats good rite? Its a good beginning ba~ Maybe i'll learn to forget soon~!

Hall Life~ Happening...

Its Kinda Unfair...

Come to think of it... I stupidly dressed him up... Make him look nice and young.... More Fashionable... No more Cargo Pants and Baggy T-Shirt... Now, he wears Jeans and Long sleeves t-shirt... First time he gel up his hair was done by me too... I feel kinda stupid now...

No wonder my aunty said that he will attract alot of attention now... And asked to dress up too... But you know what i told her? No nid lah~ Adrian likes me like that... BUT... Obviously not...

I asked him today... If next time u got gf and all, den not convenient for me to share his room, i'll rent the other room... He said "Won't that be wierd?" I jus said... "No what... We are frens rite?" Feels like i'm lying to myself... I dunno what to think now... Think i told him a little too early... But... Well... Whats done is done...

Will be going school soon... Once i'm there it will be 5 days before i'll be back in this place... Wonder what will it be like den... Wonder if he will miss me and all... Wonder how much have they advanced in their so called relationship...

I told myself not to think... Its now a platonic friendship... He is not my bf anymore... BUT i can't seem to let go... I told my good friends that i'm alright but i'm not... I watched him prepare his stuffs for work, changed, put on his gel, wear his shoe, a simple "bye" and he's out of the house. And i miss him already... And i tink i'll miss him more...

Will i learn to forget?

Hall 4, My new home!

Today just moved my stuffs into hall... First impression was... How come not like hall 6? I'm going to be staying in hall 4... The place is a little old and location VERY FAR from my school~ But HECK~ Its my place now! I'll try to spruce it up together with my other 3 room mates!

Time to pack, sleep and wake up tml to go school~! Nitez...

Hall Life...

Mother's Grief...

Just broke the news about me moving to hall to adrian's parents... Although it was for a valid reason, but adrian's mom knew there was another reason for moving into hall...

she asked me suddenly if there was any problem... i tried to lie to her that nothing is wrong... but i really couldn't... so i told her the truth... about what happened... I was okay initially but when i saw the tears in her eyes, i couldn't take it... i broke down too...

She is quite understanding actually... Except i can tell that she really loves me and couldn't bear for me to leave... She said if can't be her daughter-in-law, can also be her god-daughter also...

i told her about maybe renting a room from her if me and adrian really no hope next time... She say its okay... dunno about adrian's dad thou...

Anyway, it has come to a point where i'm really attached to the family liao... Cannot be bf, also can be brother. i'm sure adrian is ok with that... Maybe he will be more then happy? I dunno... Maybe our last life are entwined in such a way that this life we have to be together somehow... Sounds like a taiwan drama... Haha~ But thanks to her, i have something to look forward to... Maybe i'll have the family that i have always wanted... Who noes? Its too early to tell...

Now i can only concentrate on my studies and get my first class honors...

Walk One Step, Look One Step...

Its Official...

Confronted Adrian last nite... Or rather this morning... Talked and Cried, Cried and Talked... But one thing is clear... Adrian no longer have feelings for me... According to him, his feelings for me died even before they started going together... We finally decided that we can only be friends... Nothing more... So we officially broke up today, 6th Jan 2008... 5 Years, 9 Months, 26 Days...

I'm still staying at his place for now... Finding a place to stay first... Once that is found, we'll then let adrian's parents know... And i'll then move out... I guess i'll let my uncle and aunty know and see what they say... Since i'm staying hall for this sem, i hope my uncle allow me to put my stuffs at his place... Then i'll stay in hall 24/7...

Today we will be platonic friends... I guess when there is no emotional attachment, he is less stressful, and so he will treat me nicer... He actually hugged, kissed and asked me if i'll be here tonight... I said yeah~

He asked if i can be happy for him IF they actually got together... I said i'll try... But i know that i will be happy for him... Becoz when u truely love someone, all you wan is for the person to be happy... And since he can't be happy with me, i have no choice but to give him up...

Peili is still together with her bf... And i think i may jus go and talk to her one day if she is still undecisive... She has to make her choice man... It is unfair for both guys...

I may seem like a brave and strong gal... But deep down inside, I'm hurting badly... Really Badly... So much that i really feel like dying... End the misery once and for all... But i dun have the courage to do such a thing.

Adrian, if u are reading this, i wan u to know that my love for you has grown since that wierd proposal to be your gf... To a point that it is painful to let you go... I still love you even now and i'm not sure if i will ever be able to love someone else as much as i love you... You are one lucky guy to have such a nice family... Treasure them always and take care of them... I wish i had the chance to repay your family for all that they have done for me... I'm sure the chance will come one way or another... But for now, i wish u guys all the best. Love you all~

Walk One Step, Look One Step...

Third Party...

Apparantly there is really a third party... Her name is Peili... If i'm not wrong, she is a single mom, girlfriend of adrian's colleague... I think they jus broke up...

Adrian is a third party to their relationship... And this Peili is the third party of mine... Remember what i said not long ago? That sales person is destined to be with sales person? I think this jus came true...

The whole world knows it except me... Seriously... Why can't they warn me? Are they happy to see me in misery? To them, i'm already considered as an ex of adrian... This is seriously stupid... Me, hoping that we will be ok after moving into hall...

How am i not better then her? What am i lacking? I dunno... I wonder how long has this been going on... Actually i dun wanna know...

I'm moving into hall on monday.. And i jus asked him if i can come back on weekends... I must have sounded so damn desperate... He muz be laughing at me inside...

I think he didn't tell me even until now becoz he is putting me as spare tire... Someone that he can fall back to in case their relationship doesn't work out... Now, he agreed for me to come back during the weekdays may be becoz he pities me...

I really dunno what to do now... I wan to confront him... Yet i dun wan him to noe that i noe... What should i do?

Confused...

Holiday Aftermath

Okay. I went Penang with Jeremy and Eileen for 3 days 3 nites, inclusive of travelling time... Had an enjoyable time there, the local food was fantastic, but the fastfood was below standard...

Was about to blog all about the trip but i don't have the mood to do so now... Why? Becoz i happened to discover 2 ticket stubs to the show Vexille at the PictureHouse... I was initially shocked... Why did adrian have 2 ticket stubs to an anime movie? So i called him...

Me: You went to watch a movie at PictureHouse ar?
A: Ya

Me: With Who?
A: Er.... (Some name that i didn't want to remember)

Me: Who's that?
A: Andy's gf (His colleague is Andy)

Me: With her? Alone?
A: Yeah...

Me: Okay Bye. (Hang Up)

He called me back about 15min later to explain... His Story:

"There is nothing going on... Nothing between the two of us... I needed to buy a new phone and headphone becoz mine's spoiled already... So i asked her to go with me... Thats my only off day and i need that phone urgently... You are not around wat... Anyway, The show is I want to watch one... It's an anime show... I'm calling to tell you don't think of stupid things... There is nothing between us..."

Thats the gist of the whole conversation... Obviously i said alot of things in between but well... He made it look like its my fault since i'm not around... So its my fault for going away since i thought he needed his space... Imagine a short 3 day trip and this happened... Whats going to happen when i'm staying in hall 5 days a week? I have about 2-3 more days before moving into hall...

I really dunno what to expect out of this so called relationship... Again, i'm thankful that he is honest...

When a man says, "There is nothing going on." Can i believe that?

Christmas Over, New Year Arriving...

Christmas went on quite alright~ My aunty invited her family members to the house for a short christmas dinner celebration... Lots of food~ But other then food, it was kinda boring... All the adults talking, all the children playing... Nobody thats in between that i could relate to... So for most of the time, my sis, andy and me simply hid ourselves in hilary's room till the guest left... Coming out to mingle a little from time to time... Of course, the day ended with mahjong again...

Yesterday we went to aunty's place for mahjong again and i lost almost 10 bucks man~ Stayed over at her place and went out shopping with my sis and andy today~ Plus movie~ We shopped for some clothes, bikinis and watched National Treasure~ It's good~ Really good~ Loved the puzzles and riddles in the show~ My sis fussed with my attire so much that i almost gave up the thought of going to town... Why muz we dress up to go town? My sis insisted that we should look presentable~ So in the end, i wore a tank top with jeans overalls...

I have been staying out most of the days and nites... but adrian didn't call or msg to find out where am i... Either his parents told him i wasn't coming back, or he jus doesn't bother... I'm not going to try to find out... Today my sis asked me... "Do you see yourselves being together in the future?" I couldn't answer, becoz i really dunno... She jus commented that he is not right for me... I was thinking... Since he is a salesperson, does it mean that he has to have a salesperson to be his gf? And since i'm a teacher, does it mean that i should have a teacher to be my bf? It shouldn't be like that...

Okay, i shall not think too much... Time to watch my shows and slack a little more before i move into hall...

Pointless perserverence...

Such an Unlucky Christmas Eve~

Day started out fine... Prepared my exchange gift and went to buy the eye hook from a shop nearby... All i was supposed to spend was 80 cents for the hooks, but guess wat, i was hungry and greedy when i saw kuay chap~ So i ordered and paid another $3.40 and drinks for $1.20. So much for onli spending 80 cents. Haha~ Anyway, i settled down and ate happily when i was suddenly harrassed by a bee. It kept buzzing around my green tea, food and me. I didn't dare to swipe it away becoz of the sting! So irritating... Best, something suddenly dropped on my finger and i was SHOCKED~! i threw my chopsticks away~ I tote i was attacked by the bee!! When i took a good look, it was BIRD SHIT~ How nice... Anyway, i resigned to my fate and went back home after washing my hands. As i was bout 1 block away, it started raining... Hiaz... wat an afternoon...

After that, i decided to go to the wake first, before going to my aunty's place. In bus 74, i was trying to organise the paintball session, sending and replying sms with 2 phones while trying to look out for the stop to alight. When i'm reaching that stop, i put my main phone into my bag and waited for the bus to stop while smsing with the other phone. That was when it happened. I believed my phone was pickpocketed then. I got off the bus, went to the wake and started to look for my phone frantically. I called my phone many times, but it was switched off. I realised that its gone~ FOR GOOD... Hiaz...

I started making calls, arranging for the pickup of my sim card and all. And to cut the long story short, my line is under my aunty's name and she have to be present to collect the sim card. If not, i'll need an authorization letter and a copy of her NRIC... I called 1626 up and asked if any exception can be done for my case, they put me on hold, (wasted my battery) and spoke to their supervisor. They told me that maybe i dun have to present the letter, but i'll still need the copy of her NRIC... Can you see the irony? If i can get the NRIC, obviously i'll be able to get the letter!! So stupid, the ppl there really no brains one.. Might as well tell me straight that 1626 is jus a helpline and can't do exceptions but the ppl at hello singtel can... Save me all the trouble...

Anyway, after making so many calls on the public phone, (my phone died) i went to compasspoint to see if anything can be done. I tried to call first, wasted 60 cents on number 100 but hello singtel dun haf a direct line. Oh, i have to mention this, i travelled there mainly becoz my aunty said that she refused to help me get my sim card becoz she was too busy. Okay, when i'm at the shop, i finally convinced the supervisor to give me my sim card. I called my aunty to tell her to standby when singtel calls her for verification. She told me: "I got your sim card already~ I bluff u one..." I'm like WTF?????

Feeling so agitated and all, i went back to hello singtel to thank them and went to my aunty's place.. All this was done while doing last min shopping... For presents...

I bought everyone presents and i only got back 2. An exchange gift, and a muffin made by my sis... While i spent so much time and effort, choosing the right gift for everyone... Arrgh~ But Christmas is the joy of giving... So i gave...

Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year!

2 weeks left...

2 weeks left to school reopening... But his attitude towards me is getting colder and colder day by day... He promised to put in effort to make me feel loved, make me feel like i'm his one and only, make me feel like he appreciates me... He promised to do all that until we move into the "cooling off" period... But no... He didn't even hold my hand today when his father send him to work... He used to hold my hands when walking to the van, a little kiss before hopping off the van... Now he dun even look at me... When he said bye, he simply said "BYE"... No "dear"...

Sob Sob...

I heard from his parents that he played with jerome at the wake yesterday... It must have been such a sight... I can imagine him smiling and laughing at jerome, talking about games and all with aaron... But i'm not part of that, becoz i was supporting my sis... I really wanted to see adrian smile naturally for once, not forced by me or something... But i'm not getting that...

It seems like he is hating my existence, but he tells me otherwise... It must be the holiday season that working him too much... All the last minute shopping and unreasonable customers must be the main cause of his stress... I wanted to sms him earlier, but i thought, he must be super busy at the shop now, and by doing that, he may jus hate me even more... i told myself that i must be understanding towards him... But is he being understanding towards me?

Its a super 1 sided love hate relationship... I love him so much, yet i hate him for putting me through this situation... So what if i stay hall? How long will he need to sort things out? 1 month? 3 months? 6 months? or a year? What if he never did sort things out? Should i wait? Should i give up? So many questions that i really can't answer now...

I really wish to die and put myself out of this misery, yet i have my sister to think of... It is unfair to her and my family if i die just like that... Plus, i dun have the courage to die... What about getting myself admitted to hospital or something? I can't do that too becoz i will end up making my family spend more money on hospital expenses... What can i do? What should i do?

If we really break up, how am i going to face adrian's family who have treated me as one of their own, who have loved and cared for me so much? More questions that i have been asking myself... I know that this is getting repetitive, but this is what i'm going through every day... Thinking of the same things, over and over again... What can i do? I'm such a loser when it comes to him...

Hiaz... I'm a wreck...

Stomp Kai Contest

Was there earlier, spent the money on the clothes and the hair do (althou it looked the same) and i tink its all worth it. why? becoz i met my ex, zhengnan. Surprisingly he remembered me and my name~ Well, i remembered his too rite? And i was thinking, luckily i didn't look too bad. Well, even if i didn't look too bad, i felt that i wasn't worthy of his attention anyway. Like i said before, i didn't have the confidence that i'll attract men's attraction. So i must have looked like a loser.

Now, why was his view towards me important? becoz i need to know where i'll stand in society if me and adrian really break up in the end. I dun tink i'll have ppl wooing me anytime soon. At least, not until i totally change my hairstyle. Its too boring, too "goody two shoe".

Back to the competition, i feel that it is obviously FIXED... The initial rules was that the participant should NOT have any experience in modelling... But the winner is a model already... Plus, there was 6 other prizes other then the top 3 prizes... And guess wat? They are shared between 4 participants. So what happened to the other 8 participants? Stand there and watch while the 4 sweep up the prizes lo... I mean, these participants put in lots of time, effort and money. why not give all of them some sort of prize? I mean, if they are able to have a makeover, look totally different from before, they should all be winners already! These competition are a cheap way of getting ppl to advertise their products... Imagine, free amateur models (except a few who are "paid" with prizes anyway) to model their products on the pretext of a makeover contest~ Its convenient~

Anyway, the competition is over, and i hope my sis did not take it too hard. Rest well and life goes on yeah? As for me? If we really do break up, i'll probably go cut my hair short and style it up. So if you have a skilled hairdresser to introduce to me, please call me!!! Thanks~

DAMN the Fake Evaluations

Stomp Contest at Fashion Bar

My sis is in the contest and today is the finals... For her "face" i went shopping for clothes and will be cutting my hair later~ What i'll be wearing stunned myself... I couldn't believe it even until now... If i take any pics, i'll post it up... And i tink you'll be shocked too... Although i dunno wats the reason for dressing up at all, who will be there to see it? Well, i tried to get friends to turn up to support... But no one replied to my smses... So its kinda sad...

Just heard from adrian's dad, adrian's uncle or Yvette's dad just passed away. Although i feel sad, i'm feeling a little relieved actually... He was suffering due to cancer and i believe he is better up there den here... My condolences to Yvette and family~ Take care of yourself and i'll see ya soon~

I thought, if i have to die, i would wish for a quick and painless death. I wouldn't wan to suffer like he did and waste all the money on medical help. How to die? Quick and Painless?

Life is so Fragile...

I turned into a Monster...

PERIOD...

Details can't be shared unfortunately... so all i can say is i have become a monster and i'm kinda like hating myself now... Yup...

What is happening to me?

Should I believe him?

Thanks to all my friends who were concerned about me and what happened... I realised that i didn't mention what actually happened... I'm not sure if its a good idea posting it here, but as long as my family and his family doesn't read this, i'm sure its alright...

It happened after coming back from malacca... Me being away muz have been the trigger to it... Most probably, he was comfortable with me not being around... Anyway, i somehow felt that he was getting more and more distant from me... I was watching him play games but as a casual remark, i asked him if he still loves me... He answered "I dunno..." I was stunned at his answer... Usually, he would say "Yes of coz..."

I broke down, cried alot, asked him alot of questions that he couldn't answer... He also broke down, saying that his work was giving him alot of stress, until, his emotions are numb already... That was his reason for saying "I dunno". He asked me to move to my aunty's place during this christmas season... But i didn't want to... Becoz i didn't want my aunty to know the problem that exist between us... We reached a conclusion that I will move to hall when school starts to allow him the space to sort out his feelings...

After that, I broke down so many times that i lost count... Each time thinking of the worst case scenario, that is, both of us... breaking up after an almost 5 year relationship... thru this, i finally realised that i really really really love him... But if thats wat makes him happy, i'll leave...

Since i decided that i can leave only after school started, i have now till 7th of jan to make this relationship feel like how it was before... So that i have beautiful memories to live for if we didn't manage to pass the test... He agreed to let me enjoy the last moments together as much as he can give...

Recently, I broke down in his arms again... when we were going to sleep... I didn't want to... I really didn't... I dunno wat happened... Guess i missed the old him too much... He told me while comforting me, that he knows that deep down he still loves me... Its just that this season is wearing him out and he doesn't know what he is feeling... He asked me to give him time to explore for himself... He said that if we were meant to be together, we will be... He said that he still cares alot for me and he is really sorry for putting me thru all of this... All i could do was nod and hold on to him tightly...

Feels like i'm in a drama... Seems so unreal, yet its real... Should i believe him? I really dunno...

What if we were not meant to be?

ISG Ultimate Frisbee~

We won gold for our school~ We defeated the other schools and finals was quite a difficult game to play~ But we won anyway! Me, Rachel, Chris were mentioned in the debrief session after the games. We played and improved quite a lot for beginners~

But a few of us will not be getting the medals as there may not be enough for all of us. But we get to keep the jersey~

Never knew that Ultimate Frisbee can be that fun~ All the strategies and techniques totally blew me away at the start, but i slowly got used to it~

What, Horizontal Stacking, Vertical Stacking, Man-mark, Zone-mark, Cup, Force Home, Force Away, Twinkle... Hahahaa!! It was enjoyable, confusing myself with all these terms... Hee~

Hee~ Should i go for netball ISG??

Air Supply - All out of Love

Suddenly thought of this song... and decided to post it here as it totally reflects my mood now...
Confided in a good friend and apparantly this ending was inevitable... Its just a matter of time... I realised a little too late... I didn't want to admit it and kept on hoping, hangin on... I have until 7th of Jan to try and enjoy my last moments with him... Hopefully he will make it enjoyable for me too...

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Lyrics:
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too, but what else can we do?
Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you?
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh so right?

What would you say, if I called on you now
Saying that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone... I'll be gone

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you?
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

What are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you?
I can’t be too late, I know I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you?
I can't be too late, I know I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I Still Love you...

Wakeboarding~!

Went Punggol Marina to wakeboard together with 2 other poly friends... The weather was good until about halfway when it started raining a little~ But the rain came and gone quite quickly, so lucky for us!

Today's session was great~! I managed to stand on my 2nd attempt~! I feel that the control of the boat's speed could be alot better, but it was good enough~ I managed to cut the waves, but crashed almost immediately once i'm out... It was fun!

I'll post the photos and videos soon~! Check back soon~ Haha!

Wakeboarding in Jan again!

ISG Ultimate Frisbee

Yesterday was my first training with the team... The atmosphere was quite serious and the training was quite tough...

But today's games were not bad... We played 2 games and the score difference were more then 6! Although i'm very new in this game, i still get to play! Which is good~ But... I keep dropping the disc... Butter fingers... Somehow i just couldn't catch the frisbee! Arrgh~

Monday is the semis and finals... Hopefully we can win a gold for our school!!

Ultimate game for the Ultimate Players!

Feel Like Shit...

Woke up crying... Miss someone very badly... So near yet so far...

Choking... Tearing... Coughing... Dying...

Eileen! I'm bunking into your hall for the whole sem le. Have no choice liao.

How does Shit really feel?

We Won!

We achieved our goal today at the basketball finals~!

We fought hard and was awarded with 1st place! We won! and most importantly, we enjoyed ourself. Great job peeps!!

Rest and Relax!!

2 POINTS!!

Vanessa asked me to go play for ISG Basketball as they have not enough ppl... So i did... Found out on the way there that it was Rachel that suggested to get me to play~ Haha! Evil~

We started playing Zone defence. I didn't play well at all, mainly becoz i'm really not very good at basketball~ But when they started playing 3 point man-mark, i tink i played alot better. Becoz i'm quite used to man-mark. Only thing is i'm not as agile and strong as before, so there's some disadvantages there. So all i could do was pressure the controller.

At the last few minutes, i received the ball and i was open! Suddenly i heard meifen shouting "SHOOT" and i did. I scored!! I couldn't believe it but i did!!!! Heee~ I was so happy that i literally jumped for joy! I must have looked stupid and surprised! But i dun care~! I scored and thats all that mattered then! Heeee~

We won the game and advanced to the finals... After basketball, we stayed and played for captains ball and we advanced and won the finals too!! First gold for me, even thou i onli played 1 half~ Hee~

What a day~ tml basketball finals~! (Later actually, at 11.30am)

GO GO GO!!

I'm Back from Malacca!

Yeap, Back!

The history of Malacca is considered to be quite confusing! It was governed by Portugal and Britain before and the "ownership" of the city was passed, exchanged and finally returned to Malaysia, then Malaya. The place is greatly influenced by the western and chinese culture, with many churches and temples everywhere.

On day 1, we reached Malacca at about 7pm, checked in and went for dinner! Ate at Kenny Rogers and did a little shopping. Went back to the hotel after that to chill and rest for a supposedly long day for day 2.

On day 2, we woke up early for the breakfast buffet that was so great and hurried to the buses for a city tour. Visited several tourist attractions, mainly historical sites, and had their famous durian chendol~ From 9am to 12pm, we were moving from place to place and ended with lunch at Ole Sayang. The lunch there was very good 10 years ago, according to my uncle. Now, its not so great, didn't enjoy my lunch at all. After lunch, we went back to the hotel, rest a little and its shopping time. And obviously i spent most of my money on stuffs for adrian and his family and my sis~
At bout 6pm, its time for my uncle's company dinner. The MC is hilariously, irritatingly stupid lah! Quite gay and mad! But he managed to entertain the majority of the crowd. As a tradition of the company, every staff will go home with a prize ranging from $200 cash voucher to 26 inch LCD tv with $600 cash voucher. Well, everyone except my uncle. So the lucky draw session is exceptionally boring for me. But the food was fantastic! Its really good lah~
After the whole dinner thingy, we went to the nite bazaar or the pasar malam. The journey to the place should be very easy and fast but we ended up getting lost and took a long time becoz the road we were supposed to take had a temporary lights out. And since it was very dark and scary, we didn't take that road! Hahahaa!! Nothing that interest me at that place too~

On day 3, we skipped the buffet breakfast and woke up onli at bout 10am~ checked out of the hotel and went for lunch and more shopping! Again, i didn't buy anything for myself~ Hahaha!! Travelled all the way back to Singapore and experienced 3 different car accidents on the same stretch of highway, within minutes of each other... Wow~

The hotel we stayed is the best in Malacca. Hotel Equatorial... The whole event cost the company about 53k~ The prizes should be included in that amount ba~

Phew... After blogging for so much, i'm finally tired~ Hahaha!!

What a holiday~

Malacca

I'll be away for a short trip to malacca from 7th to the 9th of December...
But i'm still reachable on my handphone if neccessary~!

Happy Holidays!!

Holidays Finally Started!

Yeah~ After my last paper, i had a few more official stuffs to complete before i can really start slacking~ My last paper was quite alright, didn't have the time to complete the paper thou... The next day, there is a netball orientation test... Its basically testing the rulez of netball... I manage to score 90%~ Hee! And the last thing is the basketball ncap level 1 technical certification... I had to teach a skill in 10 min, and if i pass, i'll be able to coach basketball~

So finally, all that's done... now comes the fun part! Time to slack! Quite a few activities lined up...

Rollerblading, Wakeboarding, Paintball, Beach Volleyball, Badminton, Makan Sessions, Short Holiday in Msia, Mobtv, Crunchyroll and most importantly... SLEEP!

Woohoo... Wat a holiday...

Finally Accepted the Truth...

Went to Reuben's wake today... Finally accepted that he is in God's arms...

Its the first time for me, attending a christian wake. But the only thing different was the service during the funeral. It is actually quite comforting to hear the family and friends, giving speeches about him and telling us how much they love him and all. Singing songs to embrace their loneliness and sadness. Accepting the truth together as a group.

Although i'm still feeling very sad, but hearing from his family that they found strength from friends, family and their belief, i have decided to bid farewell to my good friend...

Good bye my friend

No excuses...

My last paper is in 5.5 hours time... And i'm still unprepared... I tink i'm onli like 40% done?

Truthfully, the dragonboat incident has affected me so much that i can't seem to put anything into my head... But it will not be an excuse...

Its my fault that i didn't study since thursday... I finally picked myself up to study yesterday night... but nothing went in... I'm jus so unmotivated to study... Keep thinking that life was so unfair and all... Whenever i heard updates about the incident on the news, i would feel so sad all over again... It was only until Monday morning when i started studying...

But its too late... There is just too much info to squeeze in one day... And i'm on the verge of giving up already... I can only hope that luck will bless me for my test later and hopefully i can get at least a B- or B for my overall grade...

Oh... Reuben's Wake will be from today till thursday afternoon... Yeah...

No excuses... Take it as a Lesson Learnt...

Bodies Recovered...

http://www.straitstimes.com/Free/Story/STIStory_180490.html

Reuben was supposed to return home on Monday... And he will be, tonight... Only not the way we expected him to... My deepest condolences to his family... I hope his wake is open to his poly friends, so we can go visit him for the last time...

When i first heard the news, my first reaction was... "SHIT i have 3 friends in that team... Hope they are alright..." On Sat evening, when they reported the news, i saw Chin Hwei on one of the photos... So i'm glad he is alright... But that nite, Adrian came home and told me that reuben was one of the 5 missing... Immediately i texted every christian i know to help pray for him to return safely... But our prayers were not answered... It was too late... Their bodies were found yesterday morning...

Such a talent, worked so hard for himself and his team... One who loved water... Yet he had to depart this world like that... Drowned... *Feeling Sick*

I'm thinking... If i were to leave the world... Will i be remembered like how he is?
http://www.youtube.com/profile_comment_all?user=ReubenKee&page=1
http://www.facebook.com/wall.php?id=661866006

May you find peace wherever u are~

Love, Rosenna...

Life is So Unfair...

Reuben was my classmate from Nanyang Polytechnic 2001 Intake... We studied together in Digitial Media Design... and Specialized in Games Design... He was a fun person to be with... Very talented in music and simply love Mugen... He was in NYP's dragon boat team already then...

I remember working with him in a project that never got completed... A few of us came together to conceptualize a versus fighting game... We sketched our characters, modelled, textured and finally rendered out to put into the game engine... We saw our characters move, jump and even fight a little... But we didn't finish the whole game in the end...

Remember once, me and adrian went to his place, to play games i think... He played some arrangements of game music for us to hear while we are there... I'm learning piano because of him... I felt so inspired by him, picking up piano on his own and playing so beautifully...

He was such a freak when it came to body building... He had all the formula mixes to help him build muscles and all... And his body? Fantastic of course... He was crowned Mr Singapore in 2006!

But all of that's gone... And i still can't believe its gone... Reuben, you have been a great friend and i'm thankful that i met you. It's and honour to be your friend. I'll always remember you...

Reuben, May you rest in Peace.


I couldn't find any pictures so i had to use some from his facebook...

Here are some links about him.
http://reubenkee.com/ (Reuben's Website)
http://www.youtube.com/user/ReubenKee (Reuben's Videos)
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=661866006 (Reuben's FaceBook)

What happened to him made me realised how lucky I am despite all the problems i am facing... I realised that life is very short... Please enjoy your life to the fullest... Tell everyone that you love them... Treasure their existence and appreciate them... Before its too late...

Life is so unpredictable...

2 Down... 1 More to Go...

Yesterday's Exam wasn't that bad after all...

It must be all the good luck that everyone's been wishing me... What i studied for psychology came out... Exactly... So i think that section shldn't be that bad... As for Motor Learning? I'm more worried about that... I was quite sure i studied enough for the exam... But it was the language that killed me i think~ I didn't noe what the questions were asking for... So... Anyhow Bomb and Smoke through lor~

Anyway, its over already, now hafta start on the last exam... Its on tuesday... Not enough time too coz tml i'll be at Netball Association from 8 to 3... So half day gone liao~

JIAYOU~!

I GIVE UP!

For the first time in my life as a student, I gave up studying for an exam...

I realised that i started too late, thanks to slacking... And there was simply too much information to cramp in so little time...

Although i think i read through that i should not have negative thoughts, i feel that i should vent my anger 3 hours prior to my exam paper.

I'm quite stressed, thanks to the uncertainty of the format of the exam paper. Is it 2 to 3 compulsory questions? Or 3 choose 2? It makes a big difference as the latter would mean i can try and spot topics to study for. But no... I have no clue what to expect...

Anyway, I gave up studying already... I know means I know... Don't know means don't know... Dun wan to destroy more brain cells already... I just going to declare that i only studied 3 out of the 6 chapters required to study... So if the questions are compulsory, i'll lose 50% of Section B just like that...

As for Section A, I can say that i only studied 60 -70%... So I can only cross my fingers and hope for a B grade... If i can't get it, i'll survive with a C... then blame myself for the rest of my life... Then i'll be proud of the C becoz it will be my first ever in NIE so far... In fact, i tink it will be my only C in my major exam grades...

What a way to break my record huh... Well, serves me right... I'm just going to take a quick nap now and hope that i can still remember some stuffs when i wake up...

"C" (see) Lah! Never Study early...

Game Plan and Beowulf~

Finished the Maths paper today... Surprisingly, it was too difficult... But as usual, its my careless mistakes that killed me probably... Question asked for "no. of books sold each day" and i answered "total number of books sold = ..." So sad lor~ Then i think too much and becoz of that, i'll be losing some marks too~ But nvm, 1 down and 2 more to go...

After the paper, i stayed back in school, did a little studying for my 2nd paper... Little as in like half a chapter... Hahahaa!! Played Lumines 2 most of the time... But once Eileen is done with her paper, we met up and head down to AMK hub where we watched Gameplan~ We bought so much snacks that we couldn't eat dinner after the show becoz we were too full~! After some dessert, we played the basketball shooting game... First time hit 4 stage and scored 340 points... Joint effort of coz~ What we learnt in Basketball module did help~ BEEF~!~!

After Eileen left, i searched for a place to study but couldn't find one... So i settled down at the interchange and played Lumines instead... Waited for about 2 hours before i met adrian to watch Beowulf at 12am... After which we had supper at Mac, or rather adrian and his colleagues had supper... Coz i refused to eat~ Dieting~ Hahaa!

Gameplan was hilarious and lighthearted, good show to watch especially after a long day... It will simply crack you up~ But beowulf, its quite gory and boring at some points... But its super realistics for an animated movie...

Alright, Time to slp! Tml will be a LOoooonG day~

3 Checkpoints Before the big H!

H for Holidays!!!
But before that, I still have 3 more checkpoints... Number Topics, Motor Learning and Control and Fundamental of Sports Psychology, Measurement and Evaluation..

Maths Exam aka Number Topics... And thats TML~!
Although i would say i'm prepared... But i'm really not certain that i'm prepared enough~ I know the concepts pretty well... The theorems and all... But its my carelessness that i'm worried about~ Even if i have the time to check my work, i'll still overlook my mistakes sometimes... Sometimes the mistakes are VERY SILLY~! I have been doing that during my class test... And i'm losing precious marks for my mistakes... Hopefully i'll have enough time to check my work again and again...

Alrighty~ Better slp now... At least i know that i'll be watching Game Plan to relax a little after the exam!

First Checkpoint... Maths...

Why? Why Smoke?

I can't seem to understand why muz an individual smoke. Whats the reason behind smoking? Don't say its because of Stress... Stress is not an excuse for smoking...

This has been distracting me so much... Adrian smoked before i knew him... But after getting together, he promised me that he will stop smoking... And he did... At least i thought he did... Never would i know that he have been smoking behind my back...

Started with casual smoking.. With friends and all... Getting cigarettes from his friends...
Now? Habitual smoking... Everyday... During work breaks... Buying his own packs...
I DO NOT understand...

I thought i heard his phone ring last night and i wanted to get his phone for him... Guess what? I found cigarettes and lighter in his pocket... I dunno wat came over me but i threw those poisonous yucky stuffs down the rubbish chute... I know that this will not solve any problem... But i'll still throw them away everytime i see them...

When i ask him why he smoke, he would say that its due to stress... EXCUSES!
When i asked him not to smoke... He said he would try... TRY????? Where got try? Even if he did? Maybe he is not trying hard enough! Yes... He has been totally honest about it and I thank him for that... But i dun appreciate him breaking his promises all the time... The trust that i have in him is GONE...

If he can break this promise... What about our wedding vows in the future? Will he break that too? Please understand that whenever he smokes, the smell and the idea of it will trigger whatever nasty feelings i have for my father... He said before that he will never be like my father... But he is not getting the point... THE POINT IS... I REALLY DUN WAN HIM TO SMOKE... REMINDS ME OF MY FATHER... HEALTH RISKS... MONEY... BAD HABITS... I rather he bite his nails or something den to smoke...

I'm even thinking whether i should smoke myself to show him that i'm really affected by this... But i really dunno if this will affect him as much as it would affect me... You guys may think that this is a small issue... But you will never understand how it is affecting me psychologically... Its really draining me...

I have been thinking... Why not just give up my principle and give in? I really wanted to just CLOSE BOTH EYES and give in... But by doing that i would be giving the signal that "It is ok to break your promise..." or "If you perservere enough, i would finally break down, give up and compromise..." Now its smoking... What if one day its adultry? And if he keeps doing that, keep saying "i'll try"... Does it mean i have to give in and compromise?

I really do love him and his family... But because of this issue... I'm even contemplating giving this relationship up... I have faith... But i'm not sure I can't take it with my father keeps popping into my mind whenever i know that he smokes... What should i do??????? HATE THIS... HATE DILEMMAS.....

So tell me.... Any way out????

Two parties in a row~

Yesterday was our class bbq... finally something that is done in a class... only 2 didn't make it out of 15 of us... One down with fever, the other one was out with his gf... It was quite fun! We celebrated our classmates birthday together with the bbq~ And 4 ppl got dunked into the pool~ The best part? None of them were the birthday boys~ hahahaa!!

Today, (aka 10 nov, coz i just came back) was an advance celebration for rachel's birthday~ It was again... FUN! I enjoyed myself there! With faizal being there, of coz there will be alot of singing! So we sang along to the electronic and acoustic guitar, piano and even percussion on the electone... Vanessa was exceptionally good on the "drums" and can play very well together with faizal~ Hee~

Here's a pic from the party~ My eyes are closed as usual.. Haha!

But somehow it had to end with disappointment~ I wanted to like enjoy a little more before i start mugging for my exams... So i wanted to watch the gameplan at amk hub... Althou adrian was quite unwilling, but he agreed.. When i confirmed again, he said he really have alot of things to do... So our plans were cancelled just like that...

Sometimes i really wonder if there was really so many things to do... Or is he just trying to avoid spending time with me... Or is he seeing someone outside? Although i know and trust that he wun do that... But all the late nights, phone calls that sounded like a girl on the other end and all the promises that he was not able to keep... Makes me think otherwise... I was forced to become suspicious but there is nothing i can do... Hiaz...

Anyway, I'm still happy that the two parties happened and i'm glad that i enjoyed myself~ We oughta do more of this~

Happy but Sad... What Irony~

My Ringtone... The Cuppycake Song...

Yupz, Surely u have heard my phone ring... This is the real deal, sang by Amy Castle~ So cute!


And her bloopers~


3 Years Old... So intelligent...

Death Star Canteen

Facebook has the most interesting videos taken from youtube~

Evolution of Dance~

Cool Stuffs!

Baby Jerome Baptism Celebration

Adrian's 2 month old nephew just went thru baptism on yesterday~

I didn't manage to take the photos of the baptism ceremony becoz i was the video camera woman then... So, just some pictures during our makan celebration at swensens after the baptism ceremony.

The pictures can be located at my Photo Album~

Enjoy the photos!

So Cute~!

We live in Singapura~ Various Versions...

Got reminded bout this movie suddenly and decided to share...

den came across this little comedy standup~

Youtube rocks lah~

Wake Up!!! I want FOOD....

Hey Kitty kitty kitty kitty...

Yeah! New Tiggers!

Today dearie went to Mustafa after work and bought me these 4 babies... So cute!

Baggy Tigger, Eggy Tigger, Halloweeny Tigger and Balloony Tigger.

I tink i have in total... 34 Tiggers!!! Hahaa!

Tigger Frenzy! Woo hoo hoo hoo!

Public Apology

I'm sorry...

I really am... I know I wun be forgiven so easily but I still have to apologize for what I have said and done...

I made a huge mistake during soccer class earlier today...
Made some comments that was uncalled for and stabbed myself in the back...
I really dunno what exactly went thru my mind when I said those stuffs...
I wun give excuses for what I said except sincerly apologize for my mistake...

Hope you guys and gals can forgive and forget...
I promise to shut my trap and be quiet from now on...

I'm SORRY!

Stupid me...

Phew...

Last week was hectic... And this week will be too!

We had so many things due this week! project presentations... essays.. etc etc... Its terrible... But at least its over~

Presentation was scary at first becoz we were still preparing even during the hour before the it... But we came thru~ There were 2 groups presenting on the same topic.. except it was suppose to be of different focus.. but the first group almost went into details on our part... so it was scary...
During our presentation, it was FUN man~ its good to see them laughing at the gameshow that we did... Manhunt style~ I wanted to post it up here.. But due to some explicit contents and copyright issues, i tink its safer not to.... Haha!

Next week, we have a maths test coming up, and i really need to complete my story by tonight~ So, its off to work now~

Selamat Hari Raya!