Updates!

I'm not sure if you know this, but i was in a car accident in May 2011. Hospitalized and all. Now i'm supposedly recovering and doing well. But many things happened and now i'm not so sure about myself. Recently someone told me that i'm less serious now, more smiley. That's a good sign to most people, like i'm more jovial.

But i feel like i'm losing my steam. I'm not getting back on track. I'm having a hard time. I've got things I need to do. things that is to do with my school's appointment. But i'm not keeping up. I feel like i'm approaching a break down soon.

I dunno what to do. Gosh. For the first time i feel like turning to God or angels for help and guidance. I'm lost. Who can i turn to? I'm stuck and feeling shitty now. Yet my kids look up to me and I need to be strong for them. Arrrrgh.... I want to get back on track. But I feel like taking time off!!

Gosh.

Rock Night~!

It's been a long time!!!

Yes, it is indeed been a long time since i updated this blog. I didn't even think of updating it until another teacher suggested using blogspot to share resources~ So since now that i'm co-editor in terms of the other blog, i'll be trying to update this blog as well~

Anyway, the term has ended, the holidays started AND ended, the NEW term has started and this is the 3rd week of school. It has been SOOO busy for me. I've got new responsibilities and so it is a challenge for me mentally and physical.

Anyway, I got to go!!

Heeeee.

Sorry

I think this blog will become a monthly update kinda thing...

I dun feel the urge to blog as i did previously...

Sick and Tired, Lack of motivation...

I think facebook probably have a more accurate update then the blog~!

So why am i still blogging every now and den? I kinda refuse to accept defeat... Cannot believe that i have become the loser i am today...

So i will still drop by when i feel like it and post some crap that you guys probably find it irritating or childish...

Hiaz...

Over and Out...

National day holiday.

Tml is our 45th national day. long weekend holiday but somehow, I'm stuck in singapore. money issue and lack of travelling idea. so here i am, wasting my time away, refusing to wrk and think. but this is a gd way to recharge my batteries! hahaa...

happy national day!

Many Things Happened...

Its been more than a month since i last blogged. So much for promising to blog more frequently huh... Anyway, its been a busy month since everything happened... School term started and things slowly went downhill and uphill and downhill again... Like a roller coaster ride...

Its a dilemma...

1. Work hard for the kids, cca, school and myself but risk becoming a loner in the school like other teachers who are passionate in their work...

2. Slack a little here and there, appear to be of no use... but will be able to blend in with the other influential slackers in the school... grades and future? Nothing liao lor...

I decided to take on the first option. Become a loner? so be it...

As for classroom teaching, i'm doubting my abilities to influence and teach the kids... i feel like a loser most of the time and an incompetent teacher... First grade honour is a bunch of bullshit... In the end, its classroom teaching that counts and i feel that i suck at it so far...

Hiaz... What can i do? I really don't know man...

What a girl wants... What a girl needs...

Bye bye Rainbow

Rainbow was a dog that came into our life about a year ago. She was a cute little black n white chihuahua that looked nothing like her name.

At the start, I resented her presence because she was the limelight of the family and stole the attention from phoenix, a JRT. She was so adorable and loves to jump onto u once u sit on the couch. She would attempt to kiss u on ur mouth! KISS! not the usual doggy lick, but an actual muacks on the lips. If she could not do that, she would lie on u with her head on ur chest, waiting for u to look down for her to kiss u.
She loved to play with a bouncy toy ball and she would chase and jump all over the place to play fetch with u. She would play soccer with u too, dribbling the ball around you as you try to kick or take the ball.

Soon, phoenix and rainbow became best pals. Rainbow was the most welcoming dog known to me. she would start barking in a cute rhythm and tone when she sense us coming. when you open the door, she would run to you together with phoenix.

rainbow, unfortunately, kept her bad habits of rummaging dust bins for nonsense food. she was given the nickname of 'rubbish dog' for a period of time.

Rainbow passed away, 2 days ago... she was vomiting for a few days but yet, none of the family had any sense to send her to the vet. until she started vomiting blood and had blood in her poo... when I heard the news, I was filled with shock, anger and regret...

Angry at myself for not being there to educate my family of the importance of seeing a vet. angry at their lack of common sense. angry at the fact that rainbow ashes wasn't allowed into the hse for stupid reason. Regret that I didn't spend a lot of time with her and regret that there were not a lot of photos n videos to remember her by.

At this point, rainbow's ashes is at mount vernon animal crematorium. waiting to go home. I insist bringing her home to take a last look and to say our goodbyes before placing her at her final resting place.

Dear rainbow, please know that we love you and we really miss you.

I want to turn back time.....