Updates!

I'm not sure if you know this, but i was in a car accident in May 2011. Hospitalized and all. Now i'm supposedly recovering and doing well. But many things happened and now i'm not so sure about myself. Recently someone told me that i'm less serious now, more smiley. That's a good sign to most people, like i'm more jovial.

But i feel like i'm losing my steam. I'm not getting back on track. I'm having a hard time. I've got things I need to do. things that is to do with my school's appointment. But i'm not keeping up. I feel like i'm approaching a break down soon.

I dunno what to do. Gosh. For the first time i feel like turning to God or angels for help and guidance. I'm lost. Who can i turn to? I'm stuck and feeling shitty now. Yet my kids look up to me and I need to be strong for them. Arrrrgh.... I want to get back on track. But I feel like taking time off!!

Gosh.